I still don't have a place to go for the high holidays, *sigh*. My local O shul has standing room only, and with a two mile walk and a bad back, I'm not looking forward to that being my bubble of Jewish interaction on a day spent in a goyishe household.
I finally gave in and did the all too forward offence of asking all my friends straight out if they could host me. We'll see.
In other news... I SO HAVE TO GET OUT OF THIS HOUSE.
Don't get my wrong, I love my grandmother and I'm very thankful for the time I get to spend with her and the opportunity to help her in her time of need. I just need my own Jewish place in order to continue on with my life as well.
My friends are helping me look into some live-in-nanny options (nice wealthy family with eight kids may be interested) while I continue to work on getting scholarships to attend a seminary. I'm also considering asking my family to hire me for pay for elder care so that I can use the money to rent my own apartment (hopefully in a more substancial Jewish community). I would like that option because it would allow me to avoid feeling like I'm abandoning my grandmother in her time of need while still allowing me to live my own life.
We'll see how it all pans out.